I have to be the world’s worst blogger; I’m incredibly inconsistent, awfully absent, and generally lacking motivation to post. I’d like to change this but who knows – my life is hectic, with a new job on the way and a new career path that I think I have finally settled on. My spiritual life, too, has exhibited some shifting (some, to say the least).
I will always be dedicated to my beloved Teotl; Quetzalcoatl, Plumed Serpent of the Wind, the Morning Star, Lord of Science, Spirituality and Study. Chantico, the Hearth Mother, Precious Goddess and Fire Lady. They shall always remain cornerstone to my practice.
I have started to discover – and this, perhaps by the Gods’ will – that Aztec Reconstructionism is a very broad, misunderstood and frankly underdeveloped spiritual practice. Most academic information is unclear, though we do have some understanding of how the Ancients worshipped the Teotl. My own personal experience in this tradition has been grand, but the Gods have pushed me in another direction that, while it certainly involves utilizing the traditional Aztec worship tools (Altar setup, sacrifice, etc.), is heading back more into the roots, bones and rattles of Traditional Witchcraft with a very Aztec twist.
My beliefs have always been a melting pot of spiritualities. The predominant flavour this past year, however, has been a very spicy Aztec addition. Now and again, a pinch of other things has been added; Druidry, Shamanism – which has always been a constant – and once more the path of the Witch (or for me, the Nahualli Witch) has been stirred in.
If there is one thing I’ve learned in approximately ten years of Paganism, its to trust my intuition and let the Gods guide me. If it feels right, do it – if it feels wrong, step back and reevaluate. By nature I am extremely analytical and occasionally overdo it; but that is just who I am. I’ve let the Teotl guide me towards the things I should be reading, experimenting with, and trying (now to only convince Quetzalcoatl to let me change my altar about).
Quetzalcoatl has led me towards a study of Witchcraft, once more – I firmly believe this will strengthen my connection with him. And continually, despite what I’m sure is his better ideals, Tezcatlipoca (The Smoking Mirror) is popping up in my day to day life and visions. Traditionally, Quetzalcoatl’s epic rival and co-creator of the world, is the God of the Night, God of Sorcery and God of Divination. He is, in many ways, the opposite of the great Plumed Serpent (their mythology is strife with a serious rivalry), but I’m sure the reason behind my introduction to the Obsidian Lord will assist me in workings of magic, sorcery, and other “witchy” endeavours. Quetzalcoatl is my spiritual Father; he is my guiding light on all matters of the tonalli and soul.
Chantico has recently been assisting me, I’m sure, on matters of home, hearth and career. I have found a new direction in my life, thanks to her guidance, and am sure this is the right thing for me. Now, I shall call upon Her to assist me with finding a place to live. Also, thankfully (and something else I’m sure she has assured throughout this whole process), she has found me a career close to my ADF friends in Oshawa, so that I may be happy with the wonderful pagan fellowship I have been a part of. Much thanks are in store for her continued Blessings and Guidance.
So here I am, developing a tradition of Nahualli Witchcraft. My Book of Shadows from previous Witchcraft traditions will probably remain, but many things will change as the book develops. Lets see how this goes.
With many Blessings to all of my readers (are you out there!?)